Re-reading…

I wrote this in this exact blog 2 years ago… It seems so far and yet, the feelings are still there… I remember that night, the smell at the Newark airport…my heart ounding in my chest, me fighting against myself… I´m here now, in one way or another I made it, and I learned a lot about the journey…

When you grow the first years of your childhood going from one city to another, changing school once and again and being constantly forced to make new friends, you never get to know what having roots in a place feels like. You learn that no matter where you move you’ll always find best friends and worst enemies in whatever place you may get to go. You’ll never really be able to answer straight away the question “where are you from?” cause you won’t feel you belong anywhere. And you’ll never really feel like “home” ’cause even when you settle somewhere like I did, you can’t help feeling like it’s just “one more place”….or at least that’s what I thought until 2007…

As I said, New York has shown me what feeling alive means and has given me much more than I could ever get to imagine. And I’m not just talking about the impression of the flashing and always amazing Manhattan. I’m also, and specially talking about a little place just across the river, a place belonging to the New Jersey State which I now feel like my place and my home thanks to the wonderful people who live there.

That is what this place has given me. The taste (for the first time in my life) of what feeling “home” is like.

Right now, 12th of July 2009, at 8 pm, I’m at Newark’s airport trying no to cry cause I promised not to and writting this to keep me focused on something before heading for Madrid, back to my life in Spain. I know it’ll feel like the longest flight ever. Everytime I leave the States I feel like I’m leaving a part of myself here. But leaving NY and NJ is harder, it just hurts. It feels like loosing my dreams, loosing the opportunity of achieving the life I wanna live and specially, like living  a place where I know I can be myself and feel loved.

I know I promised to be a strong girl. But after leaving at the airport the thing that’s made me happiest in my life I just couldn’t help shading  acouple of tears when I turned my back. Anyways, I’ve taken a deep breath and behaved for I hope this isn’t a “goodbye”, just a “see you later”.

It wasn´t a good bye

Scarlett Johansson naked pictures filtrated?

OK, maybe I´m not the first one to see this but I bet there´s still people hearing about it.
A friend just told me that Scarlett Johansson made herself some naked pics with her phone and someone robbed them and put them on the Internet. They say they might be tricked or not real and all that but they look pretty much like real phone pictures to me. Yeah…this is kind of like the yellow press or worst pink  or just “f****d up” but, I had to see it. There´s something about wanting to see these people with no photoshop to see if their bodies are actually more worth looking  at and admiring than your own. Next thing, I was in the Fotogramas.com website taking a look at the pics.  So, Scarlett, I still don´t think you have the prettiest face on Earth  but you sure have one of the most beautiful bodies I´ve seen and I don’t get why they use the photoshop with you. That back image is the image of a Venus and it’s more worth of admiration and looking at than the professional ones you see from most famous girls in magazines (including Scarlett Johansson´s). This body deserves no photoshop coatings. I’m sorry they hacked your accounts or robbed you because your privacy was violated but I’m glad we can see you´re all real.
Now I need to get on a diet and hit the gym and look for your tips on how to mantain yourself like this.

MissNo

Emmy Awards 2011 – Best and worst dressed

MY BEST

MY WORST

AND SOME COMMENTS

How can one of the most beautiful wonen on earth destroy a great dress? The opening for the leg shouldn’t be there and needs real heels instead of my grandma’s.

That dress was beautiful but not for the emmy, she needed lenght on the back.

The new girl

Can´t wait!!! It starts in a few minutes!!! “The new girl” is FOX´s new show. Zooey Deschanel is the star of this show. She is a korky, geeky, let´s just say weird but adorable girl who after a breakup moves to live with three guys. Just watch the video above and tune on your tv to watch it on FOX, channel 5.

If you still want to read more this is what Fox.com says:

“NEW GIRL (working title) is a new single-camera comedy from Liz Meriwether (“No Strings Attached”) that features a young ensemble cast and takes a fresh and outrageous look at modern male/female relationships.

JESS DAY (Zooey Deschanel, “(500) Days of Summer”) is an offbeat and adorable girl in her late 20s who, after a bad breakup, moves in with three single guys. Goofy, positive, vulnerable and honest to a fault, Jess has faith in people, even when she shouldn’t. Although she’s dorky and awkward, she’s comfortable in her own skin. More prone to friendships with women, she’s not used to hanging with the boys – especially at home.

Of the three male roommates, NICK (Jake Johnson, “No Strings Attached”) is the most grounded. He had big plans for life, but somewhere along the way, he stopped caring and became a bartender. Usually the smartest guy in the room, he has an uncanny knack for reading people and uses humor to deflect everyone and everything. SCHMIDT (Max Greenfield, “Ugly Betty”) is a hustling young professional who fancies himself a modern-day Casanova. Though his heart is usually in the right place, he’s always scheming ways to climb the social ladder and is driven by an immature and almost obsessive urge to be on “the scene.” Viewing Jess as a gateway into the elusive female mind, as well as a personal project, Schmidt encourages the guys to bring Jess into the apartment. The third roommate, COACH (Damon Wayans Jr., “The Underground”), is a former high school athlete who currently makes his living as a personal trainer. Set in his ways and with a take-it-or-leave-it attitude to dating, Coach is most comfortable when he’s in the gym. Though he’ll never admit it, Coach’s macho athletic exterior is actually a cover for his shyness around women, and he struggles to translate his personal confidence into conversation, preferring to speak in sports metaphors – or not at all.

Rounding out this group is Jess’ childhood best friend, CECE (Hannah Simone, “Beautiful People”), a deadpan, somewhat cynical model who blossomed after outgrowing her promiscuous adolescent years. She has the street smarts Jess lacks and spends a lot of time doling out no-nonsense relationship advice that only a professional model could give. She and Jess balance each other well and accept each other despite their faults, making Cece the perfect complement to Jess.

As their relationships progress, the five friends come to realize they need each other more than they ever thought they would and end up forming a charmingly dysfunctional family.

NEW GIRL (working title) is produced by Chernin Entertainment in association with 20th Century Fox Television. The series is created and written by Liz Meriwether. Meriwether, Jake Kasdan (“The TV Set,” “Freaks & Geeks”), Peter Chernin (TERRA NOVA), Katherine Pope (TERRA NOVA), Dave Finkel (“United States of Tara,” “30 Rock”) and Brett Baer (“United States of Tara,” “30 Rock”) are executive producers. Kasdan directed the pilot.”

Bye, I´m leaving you to watch it

MissNo

Charlie Sheen had fun with the new “Two and a Half Men”

Charlie Sheen twitted yesterday that he had fun and “laughs” with the first episode of “Two and a Half Men” in which he was substitued by Ashton Kutcher.

Last night too, Charlie Sheen´s roast aired. The first episode of the new season of “Two and a Half Men” was the winner on the rates fight, it actually had 28 million viewers, one of those viewers, me. I loved it!!! It was awesome!!! The episode started with Sheen´s funny funeral. Kutcher playes an emotionally dependent billionaire who wants to kill himself because his wife doesný love him and finds his new best friend in Alan. And the rest…well you gotta watch it!

Here´s Kutcher´s first appearence

Can´t wait for the next episode!

MissNo

The knockout

I´m still thinking about what on earth happened this Saturday?

Ortiz seemed to be going hard on Mayweather and suddenly, when it seems like their on a break, Ortiz is not even looking at Mayweather, and Mayweather hit back so hard that he knocked him out. It was only the 4th round. The fight had just started and it ended. It was great and frustrating at the same time. You don´t see fights like that very often but at teh same time, we didný have time to enjoy it. One thing´s for sure, it was too fast.

Take a look at how it happened

Here are some of Ortiz´s best hits from his career

Here are some of Mayweather´s

MissNo

The final cupcakes

This is how they looked

Rainbow cupcakes

A friend’s daughter’s “my little pony” birthday party is in a couple of weeks. I’m helping her with the cupcakes so I decided to try making rainbow ones and try a couple decorations as a previous experiments. Its really easy. Just separate the mix in different cups with food coloring for each color and you drop a spoon of each in layers in the cup cake molds. One drop after the other.

Julie No (MissNo)

Is Reality getting too real?

Bad news hit Bravo Tv (one of the biggest reality show tv channels in the US) a couple of weeks ago  when after the preasure of his new life, Russell Armstrong (husband of Taylor Armostrong, one of the cast members from “Real Housewives of Beverly Hills” and a cast memeber himself) comited suicide.

The show (probably the most successful of the Real Housewives saga) has already aired the first two episodes of season 2 and had to make space on the first one for an extra reunion of the girls talking about what had happened. The reunion in the first episode took place without Taylor who has been going through a lot of harrassing from the press. Bravo could’ve cancelled but, although they’re treating the issue with a lot of touch, it’s sad to say that the truth is that the suicide has been great publicity for the show. The public is now dying to see hints of what could’ve been what triggered this horrible end for Taylor’s husband. In fact, The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills (which´s first season seemed to be one of the most watched shows of Bravo TV) had 42% more viewers on this season´s premier than the first one. Be sure that Bravo is already making changes on the editing. It´s yet to see if they finally air the images of the couple´s counseling sesions.

Last season, the show had shown the couple the reality of how bad their relationship was, making it even harder by knowing that the world had realized what was going on too. The preasure of reality seemed to be too hard for them and broke the relationship after the second (now airing) season, right before the sad incident. At the end of the first season it seemed like Taylor and Russell were trying but the second season started with a broken and even skinnier than ever Taylor. In July, at the end of recording the second season, Taylor Armstrong filed for divorce. She acused her husband of domestic violence. Some say the reason for Russell hanging himself was the separation, others say it was because of the more than a 1 million dollar debt. Viewers are trying to make a guess out of what they see on this season, that´s for sure.

Can Reality shows become too real also for those who live it?
What´s sure is that his family thinks so and is thinking of proceeding against the TV channel.

PS: Added on September 14th, seems like Taylor Armstrong might be making a deal to talk about Russell´s death. Just saw it on E! News.

PPS: September 15th update. You can check out the reaction of the Real Housewives to the shocking pictures of Taylor after suffering domestic violence in hands of Russell Armstrong. They claim to be upset and devastated for her and say they understand she sold the pictures to sustain her daughter.

MissNo (Julie No)

10 years… 2819 deaths… and a global change in politics, war, and US minds

If you want more info, check the numbers of 9-11.

Julie No (MissNo)